Mi Silencio

I walked by the shore….

Thinking of the day…

When I saw him come….

And stand in my way.

Those emeralds from my eyes…

Seemed to give me away..

How could I lie?

Was all my heart could say….

I was in dilemma….

What should I say?

Was the truth worth it?

Or should I leave it for another day….

His eyes showed concern…

His eyes showed care…

He knew I was hurt….

But what was there to share?

I could have spoken….

I could have shared…

And  then something else did tell me..

That answer, that he cared.

And now I was thinking…

That what would I say?

Was the truth still worth it?

Or should I leave it for another day..

I nearly started talking…

I nearly said it all…

But somehow between the moments…

I seemed to forget it all….

The moment seemed to confuse me…

And I felt something was astray..

Something seemed to stop me…

Something told me to stay…..

I didn’t want to go on.

I didn’t want to say..

I just wanted to leave it…..

Leave it for another day…  

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“Oh! But you have to tell me!”

Was something I heard him say….

And again I considered it all..

And then I went on to say…

“ What would it matter…

If it even mattered at all…

Would you think of this later…?

If you ever thought at all…?

Would you understand it that way..

Could you make it okay....?

Could you make a difference....

Would you always hear me say?

You want to know what I’m thinking..

You want to hear me say…

The truth is something….

I would rather leave for another day.…”

He looked at me in confusion…

Trying to figure what I said…

But my eyes gave away nothing…

And then he finally said…..

“ If you would rather not tell me….

Then I think I know what you said…

I had promised to understand…

And I always meant what I said…. “

And so it seemed to end here….

But then a voice did say…

“ Why didn’t you tell him…

And left it for another day ?”

Now that He had left it..

Now that he was okay…..

I felt a little unease..

I didn’t find it okay….

Now I started thinking,…

And now I wondered what to say…..

I was maybe repenting….

My silence…. And that way….

Should I have said it?

OR was this the right way?

Did I make a mistake.....

Leaving it for another day…..